#idk how to tag this specificly tbh

[nardos-primetime]

what's the most fucked up thing/AU/whatever you made? I wanna desensitize myself to your work before diving in.

Starting out with saying I wouldn't condone any of the bad shit within my stories, often times these are just what ifs I find interesting to look into. I wouldn't look at an actual murderer irl and go "Awesome" but I'll joke around with my villain Mikey like "He hasn't done a thing wrong heart emoji" when he has actively killed and enjoyed the murder of multiple people.

A lot of my aus are more toned down from my regular more personal works, solely because I can't help but go a bit easier on the turtles since they are a comfort for me and I wouldn't find my more personal topics appropriate for the turtles.

Overall, I'd say body horror, disease, self harm, suicide, murder, and mental/physical abuse/child abuse/neglect is something to look out for in a lot of my works, along with gore and injury in general. I also have a tendency to write cannibalism (an interesting motif to me, I would not condone it irl, obviously) and/or autocannibalism (to cope with personal issues I am not comfortable elaborating on, it's some Mental health stuff.) Overall I like putting the turtles through it, lmao.

(Forgot to add animal abuse/death)

I will never directly delve into the topic of sex within my works (as in you'll never see me write any of them doing such acts), but I have a handful of somewhat older Leo's who specifically deal with unhealthy romance, one of these is within my magical boys au where all four experience some level of inappropriateness due to their fame, not once is this a good thing, and this is meant to be a bad thing within the story. The other has a Leo who dates around a lot but always falls short due to his anxieties and commitment issues. He never goes through with it, though he likes to joke about more sexual topics. (He's crude.)

The magical boys au, priorly mentioned, contains underage drinking and smoking, mental health issues, self-harm, and the boys being mistreated and abused within their own workplace, one way or another.

One of my oneshots currently has a younger child get murdered in it, though I've deliberately made the death surrounding it not as detailed, as even if younger children die in my stories it makes me uncomfortable to focus on it the same I would other characters, unless it's an injury a child survives, then it's a 50/50. This is a situation that is conflicting for the main character, but is done out of survival's sake. (In his eyes.)

Viral.Donnie has evolved into a character that focuses on addiction later on, and I do tend to give the turtles addictions depending on the story.

Million Dollar Box/Villain Mikey has hallucinations, vivid, probably not 100% accurate, but these are not his real brothers. Story wise, they are a way to delve into his mental state and look at his conflicting feelings about his family.

Villain Raph is less developed, but he actively is mentally (and physically) abusive to his brothers in his own way.

A lot of the time, my writing style mixes with the thoughts and personality of the main focus, and a lot of these times, the characters are not rational nor moral. Untrustworthy narrators are fun.

You will see I don't like actively splitting up the turtles entirely very much. Normally, I'd be able to do it easily, but I have a soft spot for them. Hell, Viral Donnie, Villain Raph, and Million Dollar Box Mikey's follow-up story gives them a family after losing theirs. Most of the time, if one turtle falls, I take the others, or at least one others with them. For fun.

I try to not go for just shock value, even if I like describing the horrors I like having a reasoning, whether it be some insane deeper meaning I made up, it fitting a character/their personality, or just being interesting for me. I do my best to tag all potentially triggering topics within my works, but I may slip up at times. Apologies for that.

Horror is my main fixation overall outside of TMNT, and I like various types of it. The Nonsense Apocalypse AU is supposed to be a mixture of slice of life and horror, resulting in a world that just doesn't make sense, with some more... serious aspects on top.

I hope this helps, I kinda went on a ramble, but I didn't want too much confusion since most of my actual aus aren't fully out yet in any way.

Hope it helps again, Anon.

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4, 15, 29, 43 for the fanfic question list, plus whichever one you really want to talk about but no one's asked. I'm asking!

4) What is your favourite genre to write for? 

Drama, more specificly kind of Neo-noir. The Mob AU. I have 0.01% knowledge of this topic but I live for it. That and that kind of twisted, dark fairy tale.

15) If you write OC’s, how do you decide on their names? 

Mel you know this is a sore topic *cries*. But except for that one case, I mostly just google ‘male/female names in [native language]’ and pick something I like. My favourite name by a huge margin is the one I picked for Cassian’s little brother - I honestly can’t remember if it just came to me or if it also came from a list. But literally YEARS later, I realised I accidentally did a super cool thing with it, because Marco has its origin with the Latin/Roman “Marcus” and that one means something like “dedicated to Mars”. And idk I feel like there’s a lot of tragic poetry in a boy who fell prey to a war to have a name that relates to the God of War.

29) Do you have a story that you feel doesn’t get as much love as you’d like? 

I don’t know about love, but there are some stories which I’d like to get more attention.Myosotis, because I’m very proud of it and guys, for once I have a cool title and not one person seems to be as happy about it as I am, which makes me a little sad to be honest ^^Also, some of my fics for other fandoms, because none of those have ever got anywhere close to the attention I got for my R1 stuff, but I am really proud of them, especially with regards to tone and atmosphere[might not be a comfortable read for some people, though, please check the tags!]  (like this songfic for ASoIaF, or this or this for Captain America).

But there’s also The River, which I am not even really super satisfied with, but it came from a very weirdly personal and dark place and I would have loved more feedback on it because I’m not sure at all if it works for anyone but me.

43) Has anyone ever guessed the plot twist of one of your fics before you posted it?

Yes! But tbh it wasn’t really a twist, it was the super-obvious conclusion for the final installment of Fluent in Silence/the Happy Endings series, but yeah, someone did guess where they were going on their holiday and someone also guessed they were going to get married again.

21) Tell me about another writer(s) who you admire? What is it about them that you admire?

you, for starters! For your writing in general, it’s always subtle and easy to read and on-point, but most of all for the worldbuilding. You always manage to chose really, really cool cultural details and you never just dump them on your readers (I do that a lot *sigh*), it’s always woven in and makes a lot of sense within the plot. That’s something I’ve also really admired in Resistance is built on hope by @chronicolicity.

I’m sure there’s like fifty others I could/should name here but um… I think one of the first writers I really admired was @loerlei, she had these cool pretty vague but super atmospheric one-shots (I used to read her Mentalist and her ASoIaF works, idk if they’re actually still up anywhere but I vividly remember some of them).

fanfic writer ask meme :)